There is also a separate self satisfying piece that is just for you deep in your soul, even if you never get to apply it like you had once hoped. I have really grown into loving the craft of learning. From random philosophical principles to plate tectonics its all so fascinating! Its funny since I used to hate school, but I guess we all grow out of certain things as we age. For now I am getting a chance to do something for me. I've given to so many others along the way, sowed into my kids and my family and even my community- but this piece feels so good because its really for me! I know I can use it for other benefits and service too, but this is sooooo for me baby!
I accrued a stack of books, all of which were read. Well almost read. I read all but the last two chapters or so. What's wrong with me? Was I too board of them? no. Was I in disagreement with all of them? no. Was I afraid to have them be over? maybe. Did I feel I already 'got the point'? ya. So I took a few months and literally read a bunch of the ends of all the books I had never finished. I still have a few more to work on. This is merely symbolic of many things in my life. I love my excited ADD ambition as I always believe Ignorance on Fire is Better Than Knowledge on Ice. I've seen so many examples of the latter and I loathe it.
Working in the various jobs I've had, I've always been surrounded by people who make the money I make- only they carry student loans, and I don't. That made no sense to me. It took awhile for me to meet people who inspired me to finish my degree. I love all those around me with degrees but a lot of them weren't using them. So why be indebted to the man? Sometimes it wasn't their fault, but sometimes it was. What if I made the same mistake? Why spend so much to work in some crappy job? It never clicked. Until this year.
Last year I registered my tween for her LAST year of middle school! This year I register my teen (yes TEEN!) for high school. It may sound competitive but OH CRAP! I gotta beat my kid to a degree!!! It never occurred to me that time would fly soooo fast. She was just in diapers the other day it seemed. But I don't need to beat her to a degree just to say 'na na na boo boo!' but rather I need to be more educated than my kid or how else could I lead, help and guide her!??? I wasn't so mad I couldn't do algebra like her, but surely I want her to see me with a cap and gown on.
There have also been a few people in my life that hold their degrees as accomplishments and prized possessions no one can take away from them! It was always warned to me: "Don't go to school to get a 'good job'" which I never really got. I mean isn't that the point? Yes and no I suppose. Yes when you are really into a specialized field that absolutely requires it. No when you are not sure how your future will end up or what you're really passionate for, in that case you are going to school to find yourself and what will eventually fit you best.
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